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I have to write a song out of some random diddles I was messing around with. And it's due in like--what time is it?--NOW! We have a concert coming up in April and we are aiming to have this (yet unwritten) song performance-ready by then. Not to mention I am elbow deep in new applications at work and my boss keeps coming in and smiling politely and asking what they can do to help, which is unnerving. And I have to have something ready for my own taiko class next week. Plus I have to revisit chekere, write a Mokuyobi solo I can live with, learn how to project, and go over all the songs we already know in our reperatoire.

I have to admit that this is pretty darn stressful. But really, if I just take a step back and look at what I have wanted for my life, what I have wanted to accomplish with it, what my goals are, what my dreams and aspirations are, then this is the best kind of stress. I mean, look. Everyone I care about is strong and healthy and relatively happy, there are no clouds of impending doom on my horizon, and I have the time and energy to focus on this. It's not bad. I just want to scream a little.

I think the most effective way I can get through all this is to shut the *@# up, hunker down, and start knocking all these things off my to-do list. SHUT UP. Yes. Now, what to do with a diddle???