Oop, Was That Me?

Got to play more taiko today. We've been working on putting together new rhythms and movement, and it's hard for me--especially the movement. But I was actually getting it today, and I was starting to feel the rhythms in my body, and I think it made my body happy, and even though it was hard, I knew that a certain rhythm was going to come in and we were going to do a turn or something, and I couldn't help it, but you know what came out of me? (No, not what you're thinking!) A hup! Not just a regular, lifeless, part-of-the-song hup, but a real honest to goodness kiai! One of those joyful kiai's that just escape you because you're having fun and you know what you're doing and it just feels good. I haven't felt one of those in a long time. I mean, I've kiai-ed recently, but sometimes you kiai to add energy and spice to a song. I do a lot of kiai's with E'ville to try to get them to kiai too, though I'm not sure it always works, and sometimes I put all that energy into kiaing my heart out and I'm not sure I get the energy back in quite the same way. But today's kiai was different. It came from a totally different place. It was totally unintentional and it kind of surprised me, because I was like, what was that? Did I do that? And then I realized that yes, I made that sound, and wow, that felt good, and I did it again and again, and I think I got my kiai back; I hadn't even realized that I'd lost it.