sigh

I don't know what else to title this blog entry.

Last night we had our tech run-through at the theater. I'm annoyed that I'm a perfectionist and I'm annoyed with myself because I get impatient when other people aren't perfectionists (for some things anyway). We had specific instructions on what goes where and who moves what, but last night people were still running around not knowing what they were doing or what song was next. Too much talking. Come on people, we worked on this on Saturday. We've all got notes. Everyone should have studied them before this tech run-through, which was only 3 hours long. We should have spent our time messing with the lights and sound levels and all the stuff you can only mess with at the theater, and then maybe we could have had a little more time actually playing the drums instead of only doing the beginnings and endings of the songs.

But then I think it's bad that I'm so impatient about it. Gotta be more composed and understanding. This is probably the first show for a lot of people. Ok there. That's about as much composure as I've got.

I'm too high strung, huh?

I'm also kind of sad because I don't know what's going to happen with Aiko once the concert is over. There are no promises. Aiko is such a good thing in my life. Sigh. I shouldn't think about it. And then there is stuff I have to begin to deal with after the concert, and I know things will just get harder before they get any better.

But I should concentrate on the concert for now. Yeah?